A Very Odd Day

     Today has been a very odd day from an emotional standpoint, and it started in a very strange way. We had our annual church conference today, and while it is a business meeting, it is also a time of reflecting on the past while looking to the future. I have been to a lot of these things, and they normally follow a fairly standard routine. About half way through the meeting today, it dawned on my that this was my last one, the last meeting in which I would be the participating pastor. I nearly lost it, especially when my colleague who was conducting the meeting encouraged the people there to share their thoughts about me with me. I have never been good about accepting complements, and it got to be a bit overwhelming. It has been a season of lasts (last Fourth of July here, last county fair, last Thanksgiving celebration...) and they have all carried the requisite feelings, but this one nearly got me.

     Then I came home to cook dinner. I am really trying to cook meals and eat in a more healthy manner, so tonight, I decided on scrambled eggs and turkey bacon. I had prepared my eggs and poured them into the skillet and started to put the bowl on the floor before I remembered that Macaiah is no longer with us. Egg bowls were one of her favorite human food snacks, and tonight was the first time I had cooked eggs since we lost her. It was a painful moment....

      So it has been a much more emotional day than I expected, but I have learned that there is nothing wrong with emotions...it is all in what I do with them...so I am a little soft tonight. It is a good night to stay home and count blessings, for the blessings are far too numerous to count....